(while listening to Charlie, Last Name Wilson by Charlie Wilson)
It seems as though there are a lot of ppl puzzled about my single status. Well puzzled is a nice word. I think it more like disturbed. It bothers them that I’m not in a relationship. I’ve heard over the past couple of weeks that I need to get a life. I’m breathing aren’t I? *chuckles* I mean I was told to get on an online dating site and search. Really?! First of all, did you ever think it might not be time for me to be in a relationship? Granted, it has been six years since the last one but maybe I needed these six years to relax, release, and let go. Maybe I just wanted to be able to breath singularly instead of breathing for myself and someone else. Maybe I don’t want to go through the whole introduction process again & again. Or maybe I’m just waiting to see what happens. Regardless, what happens is truly up to me. I have no prospects and haven’t during those six years. Maybe that’s a sign. I am the happiness I’ve been in a long time and I’m single. Don’t get me wrong there are times when I’m sitting at home on the couch sipping tea wrapped up with my blanket and I look out the window and think it would nice in this moment if I could it share it. That doesn’t happen often but yes it does. I don’t have a remedy for those occasions…yet. If I’m okay, I don’t understand the “concern”. It can’t be the “concern” for my biological clock lol I have a daughter. I just believe that when it happens it will be when it’s suppose and I’ll be ready. In the meantime, I’ll be doing the cha-cha solo in the mirror listening to Charlie lol.