Sometimes you have to contain yourself just a lil bit more in order to maintain resolve. I put conscious thought within and at times it may seem a bit exaggerated but I think it is worth the effort. Plans have been made and unfortunately have been broken however this time I think it is worth it to see this one thing through. So whatever my part is I plan to play it to the fullest for obviously reasons everything else is out of my hands. I’ve been reflective on early beginnings of our relationship and it was refreshing how we used to do this “20 million questions” …I know I am stretching this a bit but we ask alot of questions lol. I want get back to doing things like that. Rereading some of those earlier correspondences really made me smile a whole lot. I miss that. I miss alot things.