It’s amazing when you want something so badly that it just hurts. I can not even fathom what it is, what my reasons are, however I just want so much and I think that I may have been foolish in my wanting. I guess I have put this thing on a pedestal for too long and for once I am gonna have to really take it off the shelf and really LOOK long and hard at it. It seems as though it is so hard to find my reflection. I just want to see that vision one day the one made especially for me. One day one day….I’m impatient just want my return now.