These last two weeks have been a real test to my emotions and my spirit. I had days where I tried not to think about not speaking with ____ and had good happy days but they were few. I haven’t written about the situation because I just didn’t know what to say. My resolve has been tested and for a moment I really wasn’t sure if I was okay. It becomes difficult when someone you care about distances themselves from you and you have no idea the reason. You have a need to know whether or not they are okay and you don’t have an answer to that question. It is impossible not to worry. So during those two weeks that’s all I did. Then finally contact… then the test began…._____ was hurting, disappointed with family, and decided living wasn’t worth it. I kept repeating to myself what _________ was saying and I couldn’t grasp it. Not __________, I had been in this situation before with a friend and I was thrown then just like I was now. I asked every question I could think of to find out WHY. ____ was hurting and tired of the constant disappointment of family in crucial situations. I feverishly pleading on the inside even though my words were calm for ____________ not to do anything. I was going out of my mind. I didn’t think anything I was saying was working. Abruptly ________disconnected and for 4 hours I held my breath because I had no idea what was going on. Then ____made the decision to reached out again. I couldn’t have been more relieved. I still don’t fully understand how things could get so bad for ANYONE to make that decision…I’ve never been there. Communication is so important…if there are those with whom you have not spoken with in a while check up on them say hello because you just never know. To those who kept me encouraged through this I really thank you so much cause I was out of my mind. *hugs*

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