Just Wanna Understand

I just wish I understood why life takes the turns that it does. I wish I understood the lessons that I am suppose to learn from all the experiences that I have gone though. I wish that could make sense of it all. I wish that I had the answers to all the questions roaming around in my head constantly. I wish I didn’t have to ask the questions. I just want to know why it is I toss and turn at night sometimes unable to sleep because my mind is filled with thoughts of my future and what it could possibly be like. I just wanna know is that so bad.